|Here's that spiral I thought was gone for good
||[Mar. 5th, 2011|08:29 pm]
Pax was established three days after the new year, and three days before my birthday, give or take a day at both ends. Granted there were a few moments of malaise it between, but they were followed by reassurances that I was still flying high. It's been 5 days now, and the blah has not left. Guess it goes to show me that location does greatly affect my mood. Geez, what was I thinking? I almost convinced myself into trying to stay an extra month. Now I can't wait to go home. I must admit, life is simpler here. I get up, I work out, I come here to electronically social network, I go to work, I go to sleep, and do it all over the next day. In between I eat, shit, talk to people, and work up the juice to write something clever online. It was like playing Super Mario Bros, where each level was predictable up until you beat King Bowser, then you did it all over again. Going home will be like playing Grand Theft Auto, or WoW. So many options, and so many ways things can go, right or wrong. Whatever game I'm play however, bullshit is always around the corner. Silly games. The only thing that's kept me from diving to deep into the spiral is exercise. Never thought I'd be a gym rat but that's what I've been looking forward to every day, and, it's something that actually produces results. It's my WoW for now, and if it replaces it I wouldn't mind at all. I hope I can take this addiction home. |
Other than that, I'm gonna stick with my groundhog day routine and zombie my way through the rest of this trip.
2011-03-10 12:45 pm (UTC)
sorry to hear about zombie land. when do you think you'll be home?
We gotta do shit when you're hear... and not just drink and hang out (although that's awesome too). we should visit amalia or something and peep SF and do all that tourist shit we never got to do there. We could also just chill in my crib and drink wine all night and check out a bar like 1 block away from my joint (vince's old place). It's dope.
Whatever the case, let me know when you're back.
Don't know yet. Dates have been tossed around but I'm not committing to anything until my replacement's here. Until then I'll just have to tough it out. At least I'm not a door kicker dodging bullets and shit. I'm just a whiny chair force dude who cries when there's no internet available, haha.
I would like to do that Jejeune thing, if it's still there when I get back. I've been doing research on it and what I've heard is NOT to do research on it and just do it. But yeah, hanging out and doing whatever is just as good.
I'll keep you posted homes. Peace!